Television

I am so disappointed. tv fucking sucks ass. im suchhhhh a sucka for those lame ass reality shows that have infested every channel, i dont even know what to do with myself. like tonight for example, i turned it on to MTV, and what did i see? FIRST of all, i know its a joke (or is it?) but that fuckin "im on a boat" bullshit was on! really t-pain?! really?! you got that top hat on all ugly n' what have you next to two white boys that are grilling patties yelling at me to look at their fuckin boat?!? who are you?!!! THEN once that bullshit was over, bitchass lil wayne wana come on playing like 3 chords on this guitar at some show! who the fuck made you punk rock?! this was THEN followed by a reality show. muhahaha like i said, so disappointing....but please believe it gets worse.(and sad-er, brace yourself) i turned to the local news and they found some old womans body half way mummified because she had been dead for 6 years in her house and her skin was stuck to her sheets. i shit you not, this is real life. and i guess the daughter knew about it and was steady stackin her social security checks. and then the next story was about how cops found a backpack in the woods with someones body parts in it. what the fuck las vegas. what are we doing to each other..... fuck you tv, fuck you.

well yea thats all. im sucking big time at this blog shit but whatever, i try.
oh and feng wanted me to shout him out again -______- big ups to him and quest crew tho, dont hate! theyre doing movies and little interviews n shit, go them!

ANDDD *GROOVE this weekend is gonna be sick! and the lovelyzzz are gonna be in town ^_^


ok, the end! freal.

Hip Hip...

HOORAY!.......damn you tfc. you're always on with your fucking shitty actors, lame ass singers, and stupid game shows! always got the volume on all high n' shit fuckin singing and what have you....fuck you!

ahahhahahahah! i dont really hate it that much but dammit man! newhoos...
today i woke up all early n shit, ya know, doin the dance thanggg performing at the library for this charity event. it was fun, performing is always fun =] then we all ate together followed by patti and myself proceeding to run-a-mock. then later on hifi had rehearsal with johnathan from culture shock, and damn that man! he can go right along with fuckin wowwowwee! haha nawwww im jk, im only saying that bkus his shit was so redics and sick. ive decided that i either really really love gay-hop, or really really hate it....in this case i loved it. its one of those dances that i feel like i can get into character. really just feel out the moves and let the music move me. good shit, cant wait to see what that piece will develop into.
well noww im currently bullshitting homework that i NEED to stay ontop of, ANDDDDDDD...ANDDDDDDDDD checking my email which told me that i (ahem), I HAVE WORK TOMORROW! WOOOOOOOOOOO! hahaha no, its not a rumor, homegirl got a J-O-B! i am now employed by none other than American Apparel =] super excited, im also very pleased that they chose to start a nigga at 3 tomorrow, bkus i am fucking tired! and with that being said, im donezo! so goodnight! ^_^

Feb.

wake up from my dreaming and think hard on its meaning
everyday its seaming like something im believing
while i know its just the bad in me bringing out the mad in me
its so sad to see me act so fuckin fragilely
maybe the vauge images and short stories are whats real
the life i live is fake, down to everything i feel
but how can you live two lives and not even know?
how can you survive everyday and still have no where to go?
is my mind showing what my heart is shouting
do i take action or sit still doubting
tick tick theres the clock tick tick and there it goes
hand on my forehead as i stare upward at my toes
reachin for answers as i reach for the sheets
slip myself back into the warmth i always meet
tomorrow i'll wake up just the same as today
mind at highspeed, eyes lookin every which way
fuck it, im over it, to hell with trying to understand
time for the show, and im the biggest fan



poem for Feb. again, not everything i feel, just where i am right now.
and like the poem said, im off to bed, so peace out lurks.