Dela Rama

I know i didn't mention this in my last blog, but thats because it deserves a section all by it self, my nigga this shit is crucial. haha newayssss, i am officially off the market. hahaha ewww! i feel like such a gay for this shit right now! but yea, mr. justin dela rama is my babylove as of 02.14.2009....yes, valentines day, gay, i know. haha and to make it even cheesier his little brother asked out his girlfriend the same day! damn those boys! but yea, vday was pretty cute, just chilled all day with him and at night the delaphat fam went to go eat. (delaphat fam = jnel&peter, ramey&justin, alyssa&randy, allie&jeremy...fuckin losers hah) thennnn when we got back to his house there was kitkats(my fav.) and candles that spelled out "i love you" and roses and a poster that said happy valentines babe AND (brace yourself for the chessyness) the laptop was one playing "our" song. hahaahahahha! im not even going to say what song it is, just know that it was playing hahahah. and yea, then a nigga made it official. ^_^ he's too cute for that one and i am suchhhhh a suckka. ok im done being gay now but here!:


steps&mohawks....n thasss how we do

What The Fuck Is New?!

more like "what the fuck isnt new?!" ive been laggin so hard core on this blogging bullshit haha
many many thanngs have been going on, myyy lantaaaa! so i'll just shortly cover all of it...

School: like really csn? i fucking hate you.... you take all my money for books and class, give me suck ass teachers, and hella assignments. i really hate you.... the other day in class i actually shaved my steps back in tho haha at least i find something to do. Oh and i def play Pusoy Dos with Danta in psych.

HiFi: like really hifi? i fucking love you.... hahaha no but really. i really do. we just had auditions so we picked up a few new mamas and im really happy with who we got. i see potential in all of them, and i hope that they can learn to love hifi as much as the rest of us do. we had one rehearsal since we got them and it was pretty sweet dude..... daff gave us an assignment the week before to write why we dance and then we had to share at rehearsal. so instead of writing mine like a normal person i made a fuckin poem hahha i felt like a gay, but i hope the girls liked it. i think they did...maybe.....just a little ;D haha and yea, now i had to send that to the hifi myspace so daff can put me on blast -___- hahah jk, im honored =]]] ohhh and we also had a little performance last night at my nigga Allie's debut. it was funn like always, gotta love showtime=]

Work: i really dont have anything legit for this section...yet! haha im currently trying to find a jobbbb. the last thing i went to was an open call for american apperal. ok so that was thursday night and ive been just waiting and waiting for them to call me back, so then yesterday they called and asked if i could go to premium outlets right away for an hour to talk to some ppl or some shit. and i fucking had to tell them i couldnt make it ='[[[[[[ i was right in the middle of getting ready for the debut and i had to miss it. but i told the lady my situation and said i could do it today and she sounded like it would be ok. HOPEFULLY she gets back at me. freallllll im so down to work over there, cross ur fingers =/

Home: as of lately, i dont really have one of those hahaha i left my moms house and am now just wandering around vegas. naw im kidding, i have a place to sleep, no worries! so now im just out here making my way and trying to make a living. no matter what my situation is i just know that im going to be fine. as long as you think positive and stay determined you'll be successful. thats what i believe anyway. its going to be hard and i know it might get stressful at times, but thats fine with me bkus i have faith in myself and know that everything works out in the end. im happy where i am now and believe that theres no where for me to go but up =]

so thats whats going on with me, i was in need of an update hella bad!
kayyy well im off to do laundry now, then chillin till hifi tonight!! yay!! =]

Big Ups...

to all mahhh haytahhzz! ewww haha well yea, shout outs to you ;D and this shall be my official poem for January, like i said i was going to do. its a little late, but hey, inspiration takes time bitch!

kick down a lyric
leave you fearful if you spill it
such a precious thing to waste
knocking your wind out with distaste.
look my direction slantways in hopes that i wont see it
but in all reality, im just gonna call it how i see fit
we all gotta jump and take flight from the nest sometime
& if it should be Gods will then time is all mine.
there is no room for what the outside looking in has to say about the cracks on the ground
bkus by the time they look up im nowhere to be found.
its all a struggle bustin out the bubble
cause a little trouble & of course, bring back double
we cant make moves dependent on the opposing position
bkus there will be no moves, just stuck in the state of listen.
its greater to speak & be heard than hushed & unsure.
take a chance catch the flight,
live life to its fullest & start tonight.

this isnt everything i felt about january, just where im at right now. many things have happened this month. amazing things. i appreciate it & wouldnt have it any other way. im learning a lot this year already and can feel myself growing as a person. just embrace who you are, what you have, and who you could be. its a beautiful thing....

Help.

if you read this, i would encourage you to pray for me. hahaha i feel so gay for saying that but honestly, i wouldnt say it if i didnt need it. shit is redics.... im sure ill write about the madness some other time, but for now all i ask for is a little bit of blessings on my end....even if i dont deserve it.
"...God grant me the courage to change the things is can..."
<3